Pain, Passion, & Pontification
Pretty boy.

Pretty boy.

How you *should* be eating your food.


If you don’t strategically eat your food so that the last bites to go in your mouth are the tastiest look at your choices

Fact.  You’re living your life wrong.


What I mean when I say “I can’t do that”- Anxiety Version:

  • I am unable to do that
  • I am too stressed out to do that
  • I cannot face the humiliation of attempting to do that
  • My body will physically not allow me to do that
  • I am on the verge of a panic attack
  • I cannot do that

What people hear:

  • I am unwilling to do that
  • I am just shy
  • I am overreacting
  • I am lazy
  • I need to get more experience in social situation to help my anxiety
  • I need a push
  • I don’t want to do that

Inspired by X

My family & friends get it.  My brother has understood the longest, but my parents have finally caught up.

It’s awful that some of us still need to fight this; it just aggravates an already tense situation.

Appreciation post: Jinki wearing specs

Always relevant.  I wish he wore them more often.







The reason I decided to make this video is because the overwhelming amount of anti-blackness in kpop that has been either ignored or excused, in the last two years, is unbelievably great.

No matter how much has happened, people still refuse to even acknowledge how big of a problem it is. You have to think to yourself, why is this only happening with black people and black culture? How is no other race being as blatantly used or disrespected in kpop? Anti-blackness is no accident. It’s a worldwide disease.

The perspective I have as a black kpop fan feels very odd. At some points, I feel proud because I realize many idols’ favorites are black people but most times I feel confused, because even though this is true we are still not truly respected. Not by idols and not by most kpop fans that don’t put defending us on their priority lists, regardless if we’re “one big kpop family” and “all in this together.”

The fact that most of us fans have to constantly shift between liking this genre and wanting are humanity respected isn’t fair. And you might say, if you’re just going to complain and be negative then why don’t you stop listening to kpop? And to that I’ll respond with, how is pointing out racism “complaining”. Complaining is maybe talking about how I don’t like a song, complaining isn’t talking about how I don’t like pieces of my culture being bastardized. And how is pointing out racism negative? When racism itself is the actual negative?

The point is, this cycle of silencing black kpop fans is horrendous. If we counted every anti-black thing that has happened in kpop, there would be well over a hundred incidents probably.

This isn’t about packing up and “leaving” kpop (but if you want to, I wouldn’t be surprised or judge you for it). It’s about making sure everyone sees and hears what we see and hear.

I realize that for some black kpop fans, they’d still rather not think of these things because kpop is their escape from life or other troubles. Do your thing, that’s fine, whatever. But when you see other bkfs speaking out, don’t try to silence them because they’re doing their own thing too and it’s their choice. We all have the choice to either speak up or stay silent but no matter which option you choose, it looks like kpop has already chosen it’s own option and that option is to continue being racist.

So here’s a simple compilation of racist or just very questionable events I wish there were answers for.

Not entirely sure how Onew’s clip fits into this conversation, but an important one nonetheless.

^^^ yea tru i didn’t get why that was in there?

Like he seemed like he was just saying the girl caught his eye or whatever, like if someone can explain that to me i’d would be open to understanding

I was confused about that too but then I realized it must be because of how the other people said the black girl and one of the korean girls could be sisters and they look just alike while laughing when it was very clear they look nothing similar

Ohhhhhh, thanks tiga

The clip has been banned in America but if you search deep and fake your IP address you can watch the whole clip. He was saying that she stood out as being pretty to him out of all the international ‘noonas’ and he said hello to her and got a little flustered/smiling. The woman who made the comment kept harassing Onew the whole time, trying to touch and flirt with him. It was about the woman pointing out that: “Her skin is darker than mine obviously.”

It actually wasn’t that.  Yoo Chaeyeong jumped on the fact that Onew had chosen Euphrasia, a very dark woman, as the noona who had caught his eye.  Yoo Chaeyeong was saying that if that was what interested him she could be that too.  It was on “Global Talk Show” (19 October 2009).

And it ALWAYS infuriated me that a very important, very powerful speech by Malcolm X, a man who was murdered for standing up for his principles, was used as a backdrop to a MV.  Offensive to the extreme.

I’ll let cornrows slide because love them.  Everything else needs to end. 

Dreamin’ of…well, you know


Aegyo in the streets
Dubulge in the sheets

Seriously!  What is up with this fandom?!


o h … (¬‿¬)

He doesn’t thrust deeply because that would kill a woman.

Ohmygosh.  This fandom…  Not that I disagree…  ;)


o h … (¬‿¬)

He doesn’t thrust deeply because that would kill a woman.

Ohmygosh.  This fandom…  Not that I disagree…  ;)




This is so important.